"I've been around the blocks so many times I'm gettin dizzy"

I heard that quote said by leslie jordan and it has never been so true. Does anybody else feel this same way?? Like all this shit is getting so routine....and old real fast. Give me some damn excitement quick fast and in a motherfucking hurry!!!!  Don't let life obligations hold you back from exploring and making life happen to the fullest extent. 

Self Mirage

Cut to:

Int. Mirror- Day

James is staring into the mirror. He picks up a marker and begins to write on the mirror. Words like “Hate, terror, faith, sorrow, happiness, lonesome, tired, sorry, overjoyed, extasy, life, and passion.” And in the middle, he writes, “Broken”

Cut to:
Black

(Cue Song)

Cut to:

Int. Bedroom- Day

Voice-over

You know how people say, “If I could go back and change what I had done, it would make my life so much better.” Well I denied that I would ever regret anything. My story is one that most will connect with. For starters, I lost everything. And I start as nothing.

Dear Rihanna, You are not Lady Gaga.Thank you for trying. :)

Yes, Its harsh..but whatever. How did Rihanna go from good girl to this ultra punky pop chick I KNOW!!!! BY JACKING LADY GAGA'S STYLE. As Beyonce tried to do the same but it was a fail attempt as well. Luckily for Beyonce, She was smart and said I should get on a song with her, and boost off her fame and fashion. Beyonce told Lady Gaga on the set on the "Video Phone remix" that "She wanted to do Gaga" Plainly admitted the she was jacking but Rihanna is just coasting on this shit like no problem. Don't believe me...Lets look at the photos shall we...

Really...The same shades...Bad Romance came out before Rude Boy, Which I watched and tried not to vomit.

Both wore strappy outfits for the same show..hmm.....think Rihanna is in someones closet...real...deep..

Same Jacket

Enough Said.....


Now don't get me wrong, I like Rihanna, but this bitin shit....GOTTA GO!!!

1...2...3....not only you and me

So i'm listening to Britney Spears "3" song and noticed why I love the song beyond being a Britney Fanatic. Its because the song is very voyeuristic. Look at the words:

"3"

One, two, three,
Not only you and me.
Got 180 degrees and I'm caught inbetween.
Countin' one, two, three...
Peter, Paul and Mary.
Getting down with 3P, everybody loves... Uh!
Countin'...

One, two...
One, one, one, one, two, three...
Countin' one, two...
Countin' one, one, two, three...

Babe, pick a night
To come out and play.
If it's alright,
What do you say?

Merrier the more,
Triple fun that way,
Twister on the floor.
What do you say?

Are you in?
Living in sin is the new thing, yeah...
Are you in?
I am counting...

[Chorus]
One, two, three,
Not only you and me.
Got 180 degrees and I'm caught inbetween.
Countin' one, two, three...
Peter, Paul and Mary.
Getting down with 3P, everybody loves... Uh!
Countin' one, two, three,
Not only you and me.
Got 180 degrees and I'm caught inbetween.
Countin' one, two, three...
Peter, Paul and Mary.
Getting down with 3P, everybody loves... Uh!

Three is a charm,
Two is not the same.
I don't see them harm,
So are you game?

Let's make a team,
Make 'em say my name
Loving the extreme.
Now, are you game?

Are you in?
Living in sin is the new thing, yeah...
Are you in?
I am counting...

What we do is innocent,
Just for fun and nothing meant.
If you don't like the company,
Let's just do it you and me (You and me...).
You and me (You and me...),
Or three (Or three... or three...),
Or four on the floor.
Pure sexual voyeurism. I love it!!! Lately I have been wanting to be a little more voyeuristic myself. Trying new things not just saying sexual but anything new and exciting. Who wants to join???? Any takers????

 

(Self Destruction: The Change^up)

(Self Destruction: The Change^up) - What you thought before was a smokey image of man. I am only what I show you. Thought you knew me didnt you? I switch it up, so you cant keep up. Watch for the change^up

Drunk Blogging

"Ok This shit might be a little dangerous. haha It the title has not gave you an accurate prediction about whats going on, let me clarify. I am drunk and I am blogging. Yes, this is happening right now. I gotta say it feels great to say what the fuck I want to say about anybody and everything. Like alot of shit strikes my eye and alot of people get on my fucking nerves. So its like the perfect accessory for a gay/bisexual/straight/retrosexual/sexual to have. So I figured out I may be a little of a hoe, just...a...tad...bit, I shouldn't want to fuck just everybody. I call myself reckless greedy, I want everybody.

But....

Anywho........

In a couple of days, I will have another blog dedicated to the first script and full length movie starting from pre-production to distribution. I am doing this film from the ground up without even having equipment yet. I will let know various updates on the script."
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well it is now sunday and i wrote all the above on thursday but never posted it. I think I like Drunk blogging. 

They Don't Want To See Me Happy........

Hello Haters, this is a special post just for ya'll. Guys people are always gonna find something to hate about you. Now don't get sensitive and sad and all that other shit cause people don't like you or feel offend by you. Just simply tell them," I appreciate your current interest in me. I encourage you to stay tuned cause now I will make it my personal job to have you hate on me more. Watching you try and stop me will be for my own gratification. that's all "

I'm sorry, Did I say something sexual and you got offend?

Apparently there are still sensitive people out there when it comes to sexual content. One of my friends spoke on some stuff on a facebook status that was very true. Yes, it was sexual which was the problem with one girl. The status was......

"I hate it when a guy i knew from a while ago starts talking to me and then ALL OF A SUDDEN feels the need to be like "So when you suckin my dick?" and im just like WHAT THE HELL MAKES YOU THINK I WANNA STICK YOUR DICK IN MY MOUTH!?!?!? And what the fuck kinda fun is it for a girl to just give head? Girls should text gu...ys n say hey fucker when you comin to eat my pussy!!! stupid fucking men... hahaha"

True right??? Guys do that shit. But while everybody else was making joke comments and agreeing. Some chick felt the need to say it was immature and saying this shows how easy my friend is and wishes guys were asking her this, therefore saying she was making it up. Hey!!! NEWS FLASH!!! Nobody gives a flying fuck if you were offend and can't handle a simple comment about someones sex life. Everyone has one, well, maybe except for you. CAN WE SAY MAJOR BLUE CLIT!!!!!!   So my message to the girl....umm..lets see.....obviously no one wants you to suck their dick, might wanna work on ya head game. ha and if she didn't post it on your page, no one asked for your opinion but u gave and i know you seen the responses. HEAD SHOT....YOU GOT OWNED!!! 

For my friend, who I love cause she is the shit........ This song came to mind......"MY CHICK BAD, MY CHICK HOOD, MY DO STUFF THAT YA CHICK WISH SHE COULD. MY CHICK IS BAD. BADDER THAN YOURS" DO YO THING GIRL!!

Oh How Old Flames Still Burn

Question: Is anyone ever over anyone? If you were to see an ax after like ten years, would you want to still date them? To popular belief, we feel like after we break up with someone and go through the whole binge eating and sad movies and taking all their last remaining items and burning them, we feel we are over that person. FALSE!! We never get over a person, cause the minute you see them all those feelings come back. It just depends on how you are if you can throw up the defenses. For me, If i see you and its starts to get heavy, I will avoid kissing like the plaque. Its very personal to me and if i do, all that shit will be back. Its like playing tennis, When they hit the ball, you better be ready to smacked the shit and block the point. Damn exs, they make things so complicated sometimes. And don't let the sex be good, damn, you start to miss that shit.

YSL ( YVES SAINT LAURENT) FALL 2010

Here is some outfits from Yves Saint Laurent Ready to Wear Fall 2010 Collection. My favorite Designer.

What's wrong with being a ho????

Why is it the minute someone considers someone promiscuous that their a nasty ho? Like I see nothing wrong with being a sexual person. As long as you do it on the right terms and protect yourself. I can say without a shadow of a doubt in my mind that most of my friends are pretty sexual, some more closed minded than other but thats beyond the point. They have their limits to certain sexual things. I would love to go to a swingers club and watch people go at it. lol People hear me say that and their like thats wierd or nasty and pretty ho-ish. To me, its not. Exploring sex and sexuality is a beautiful thing and should be embraced. Don't be mad cause someone you know is getting more sex than you. If your a relationship person, you have fun with that. When that person gets boring, lets see what you start doing. Some of ya'll know what im talking about. 

Nylon (The Beginning)

(Nylon II) I feel better than ever. I left the light and entered the dark light. The music will shoot vibrations from my feet to my soul. My friends have become enemies, and my enemies from before will be extinguished. Everything shall move in slow motion. I have no problems nor obligations. I will be free. Reach my hand out and touch someone else body. To feel their heat connecting with mine.  The room has no room to breathe or move. I will merge with them. Welcome to.........

 (Nylon) "This one item has given me inspiration. To live as if I only awoke at night. To dance to keep the night alive. Dress with extreme Retro Fairy Tales. Bad vibes fall from my ear. Not entering my blood stream. Smoke as a form of entertainment. Drugs will be my permanent obiligation. My friends will be the wrongs ones. My family will be ignore my habits. I feel better than ever......

The room has no room to breathe or move. I will merge with them. Welcome to.........

 

He's not that straight.....

DISCLAIMER: STRAIGHT GUYS THIS IS YOUR WARNING.

Can anybody tell me why straight men just can't admit that maybe their a little bi curious? Its a bunch of them out there. Ok!! so you have lil fantasies about men. SO WHAT!!! Go and explore and fuck what people think of you. For those who are bold enough to admit that, don't go have sex with a guy or do anything sexual with a guy and then get all sensitive and shit about it when people find out. I have encountered this like twice. Man up to it and say yeah I did something with a guy...SO WHAT!!! Now if ya ended up liking guys more than girls, that's ya thing. And when people find out, don't act like you don't know what they talking about and then try and put on this whole macho persona and attitude and being all extra masculine. It only makes you look more guilty. And don't try and do shit with a guy who is like your girlfriends best friend and then get all sensitive when you find out I had sex with her. You guys know who you are. And for the simple fact that I can't stand guys like ya'll, I don't care if you get offend or not.

Nylon III

" This place is unfamiliar. Not my usual scene. It was brighter, but I was more scared. Lost I was. There was no music and no flashing lights. Creatures of the night fought for my soul. I ran with all my might, trying, and breathing deep and shallow. I found my way, running towards a bridge underpass. Where a party was gathering, and my brother was the main speaker. He looked different, he was my brother, but slightly changed but he was still the same loving brother I always knew. His words made me cry, hard and harder....until I begin throwing up. Little bit at first, then gallons of black junk. I forced myself awake and hear a knock at my door. Slow then rapid....the knocking....knock knock knock knock knock.....I was still there....."  

Introduce her to your world of sex, drugs and... what else do you do?

I can say without a doubt in my mind that Cruel Intentions is my favorite all time movie. I believe it is the movie that has created me into such an open person today. I saw this movie when I was 10 or 11 and at that age,  I was shocked at what I was watching. It had everything! Manipulation, drama, sex, drugs,love,incest, gay, straight, deception,lies, token black guy,money,class,gorgeous cast,great script,EVERYTHING!!! 

It was so different for the typical teen movies coming out in the 90's and 2000's. I would sit in my room for hours and watched it on vhs. All these elements just came together and made this fantastic film that I still love to this very day. For those who have never seen Cruel Intentions you need to. Here are some of my favorite quotes from the film. 

^Quotes^

Sebastian: We've done some pretty fucked up shit in our time but this... I mean, we're destroying an innocent girl. You do realize that? 


Kathryn: Introduce her to your world of sex, drugs and... what else do you do?

Kathryn: Fuck her yet?
Sebastian: Working on it.
Kathryn: Loser.
Sebastian: Blow me.
Kathryn: Call me later?

Kathryn: Tastes good. So, I assume you've come here to make arrangements. But unfortunately, I don't fuck losers

*My favorite quote*

Sebastian: You amaze me.
Kathryn: Eat me, Sebastian! It's okay for guys like you and Court to fuck everyone. But when I do it, I get dumped for innocent little twits like Cecile. God forbid, I exude confidence and enjoy sex. Do you think I relish the fact that I have to act like Mary Sunshine 24/7 so I can be considered a lady? I'm the Marcia fucking Brady of the Upper East Side, and sometimes I want to kill myself. So there's your psychoanalysis, Dr. Freud. Now tell me, are you in... or are you out?

Godsend(poem)

Lie to me, God

Tell me what I want to hear

Lose faith in me, God

So I’ll have something to fear

Tear me down, God

So I can saved myself

Don’t forgive me, God

I forgot how it felt

Cut my wrists, God

I want to bleed like you

Strip me down, God

To show what’s true

Rape me, God

I feel helpless

Control my mind, God                   

Take my stress

I’m crying, God

I’m dying, God

I’m trying, God

I’m sorry, God

Tell me the truth,

That you didn’t give up on me.

Let me fall

To show me what I need to see

Talk to me, God

I’ve been lonely

Photography- The Hotel Collection

THE HOTEL COLLECTION

(John Gartrell)

*Photos from a collection i'm working on*

Church is Law....um..ok

Lately i've been trying to figure out when then the church is law. Over some churches feel like they have say so over peoples lives and govern everything people do like their GOD himself. Now don't get it twisted, i am a christian. Now am I a perfect christian, no...but I know what i believe and don't need any help in that area. My main problem is pastors and churches should preach, not FORCE. Anybody that knows me very well knows right now, Me and a certain church aren't on very good terms at all. I have watched them manipulate and tell lies and deceive people and etc of bad things. Don't hand out pamplets talking about vote for the christian president and force their members to vote for John McCain. Nothing against McCain but don't be a one side church. Who people vote for ain't got shit to do with you. In my opinion, the bigger a church gets, the greedy they get. The tithes and offering goals get higher and higher. I haven't been to this church in a very long time cause i noticed the way they were from like the first couple times I went a long time ago. There's also the gossip and drama in churches....OH MY GOD (no pun) Wanna keep nosey people out ya life, choose ya church wisely...so thrive off knowing everything in your life and twisting and throwing your business around. 

One of my best friends, called me the other day, crying and very upset at how some church somewhere was blasting gays and abortions. They were making t-shirt saying things along the line of "What is there for a fag? Hell and redemption" or something along those lines. I was calm and simply said that's their opinion and don't let it affect you. She simply just wanted to know, "What happened to preaching love for one another?" How this one church she doesn't know can ruin it for all churches. Where is the love and respect in churches???

Songs of the Day

Flipping the Pig - Hide and Seek

Flipping the Pig - Hide and Seek(YouTube)

Drake - Right on Time(feat. Kanye West)

Drake- Right on Time(Feat. Kanye West)(YouTube)

Self Destruction VI

" Eyes glancing, Thoughts prancing. My mind wonders aimlessly. No this is not love, nor is this pure affection. Just lust"

Art- Edouard-Henri Avril

I woke up one morning and was pushed to find new art. I wanted to see something really new and adventourous. I came across Mr. Avril and was fucking amazed. Not by the paintings fully, but the time period in which they were painted. Like it was fucking mind blowing to see these types of sexual things in that time. I became an automatic fan and want all his paintings desperately.

Édouard-Henri Avril (21 May 1843 – 1928) was a French painter and commercial artist. Under the pseudonym Paul Avril, he was an illustrator of erotic literature.



Born in Algiers, Avril studied art in various Paris salons. From 1874 to 1878 he was at the École des Beaux Arts in Paris. Having been commissioned to illustrate Théophile Gautier's novel Fortunio, he adopted the pseudonym Paul Avril. His reputation was soon established and he received many commissions to illustrate both major authors and the so-called "galante literature" of the day, a form of erotica. These books were typically sold in small editions on a subscription basis, organised by collectors.

Avril illustrated such works as Gustave Flaubert's Salammbô, Gautier's Le Roi Caundale, John Cleland's Fanny Hill, Jean Baptiste Louvet de Couvray's Adventures of the Chevalier de Faublas, Mario Uchard's Mon Oncle Barbassou (scenes in a harem), Jules Michelet's The Madam, Hector France's Musk, Hashish and Blood, the writings of Pietro Aretino, and the anonymous lesbian novel Gamiani. His major work was designs for De Figuris Veneris: A Manual of Classical Erotica by the German scholar Friedrich Karl Forberg.


Avril died at Le Raincy in 1928.

Orange Pride!!

So I work at a place that main color is Orange. (Take a wild guess) Everyday I work 7 to 4 or 7 to 1 five days a week. OUTSIDE!!!!!! And to be honest, I been doing this shit for two years and outside is starting to look a little bland. I come home everyday sweaty, dirty, covered in concrete mix and pinestraw and rocks in my shoes and ruined outfits. But Its the people I work are what really makes my job bearable. Everyone accepts me and i have no problems with anyone, well theres a select few i can't stand, but whatever (THANKS FOR COMING lol) Thank you for all the people I work with. You make everything worth it at work. OOOOHHHHH.....AND THE PAYCHECK!!!!!!! Thats right...MOTHERSUCKER BETTER PAY ME!!!

Self Destruction V

" The rain only heals temporary things. The storm will wipe us all clean."

Cinema: Irreversible

Irréversible (2002, France) is a film written, directed, edited, and photographed by Gaspar Noé. It stars Monica Bellucci and Vincent Cassel. Several reviewers declared it one of the most disturbing and controversial films of 2002. The film employs non-linear narrative. The music is by French electronic musician Thomas Bangalter, who is best known as half of the band Daft Punk.

Irréversible won the "Bronze Horse" award at the Stockholm Film Festival and competed for the Palme d'Or at the 2002 Cannes Film Festival, as well as the "Best Foreign Language Award" by the Film Critics Circle of Australia. It was also voted "Best Foreign Language Film" by the San Diego Film Critics Society (tied with Les Invasions Barbares).

I saw this movie and was absolutely blown away by the plot and actors and style of filming. It was unordered and ordered at that same time. The movie starts at the end and begins at the end. The haunting soundtrack and guerilla style camera work, made me wish I never watch this fucked up on anything. 

Sexxx Stories Chapter 1: More Juices Please

So the other day i'm talking to my one of my good friends and she is telling me about this amazing sex she was having with her BF. According to her, He fucks like a jackhammer. hehe So their going at it like horny rabbits and she is feeling close to climax. When she came felt this EXTRA amount of liquid. She proceded to ask if her boyfriend had came with her. His response was no.  At this point she kinda figured, "DID I JUST SQUIRT!!" Know this is a rare and awesome skill, if I say so myself, for a woman to have. It turns men on for some strange reason. I don't even know why it turns me on but it does. So to all my girls, KEEP SQUIRTING!!

Televsion: Skins

SKINS

Skins is a British teen drama that follows a group of teenagers in Bristol, South West England through the two years of sixth form. The controversial plotline explores issues including narcissism, dysfunctional families, personality disorders, substance abuse, sexuality, teenage pregnancy, disability, suicide and death. The show was created by father and son television writers Bryan Elsley and Jamie Brittain for Company Pictures, and premiered on E4 on 25 January 2007. The first two series' main ensemble cast were entirely replaced for the third and fourth series. Some secondary characters were kept. The show is notable for its casting of amateur actors and young writers.

I came across this show and just ABSOLUTELY fell in love with it. The first episode started slow but as I continued to watch, I started to see all these different layers to it. IT WAS MIND BLOWING. I STAYED UP AND WATCHED THE WHOLE FIRST SEASON ON MY NETFLIX. Even though I had to be a t work at 7 am. lol It has received enormous recognition in the UK and US.

Now for the bad news, MTV has just reported that they have started filming a US version of the show in Canada. Ummm..Lets see.....its something called Degrassi..that is just like skins but sucks more. Their gonna fuck up this show so bad cause of the fact that they can't show what the UK version shows. DAMN AMERICA FOR THEIR CENSORSHIP LAWS!!!!!

SKINS TRAILER

Self Destruction Life Lessons

Lesson 1 - Holding it in

Often people tend to hold in their true emotions and feelings. We bottle everything up inside then finding ourselves exploding or breaking down into tears. No one ever tells anyone the full truth. We want to keep our secrets,thoughts,lives, feelings to ourselves.

(Self Destruction: The Begining)

So I started writing a series of quick words connecting to a bigger story that will expand of a long period of time. Here are the first 6 Entries.

In pain but gotta keep moving. (Self Destruction I) Walls cant stop my endless mind.

(Self Destruction II) No words amount to fear. some words amount to nervousness. More words amount to everything. Hold no tongue.

(self destruction III) The body is flexible. The hands,arms,legs,feet,fingers,head,torso can create moves into inspiration to mask the pain. Dance can heal all.

(Self Destruction Music Interlude I[Radiohead-Nude]) Don't get any big ideas They're not gonna happen You paint your smile And fill the holes There'll be something missing Just when you found it It's gone Just when you feel it You don't It's gone forever She stands stark naked And she beckons you to bed Don't go, you'l...l only want To come back again Dirty mind is thinking

(Self Destruction Pre Destruction) 120 to 120 losing and gaining. The constant trip. Sliding down. Routine. Im breaking.

(Self Destruction IV) I am the last of the Fallen. The one who stands alone, in my own rank.

Welcome to Retro Nylon

Hello Everyone!! Welcome and thank you for stopping by my blog. I wanted to create a blog that touched on every level. From movies to tv to fashion to music to sex to drugs to technology to advice to relationship to etc. I will also be posting original writing and photos by me and friends. So be prepared to see any and everything.

So come in to where the mind roams free, space to breathe, lies and truths to see. An absolute journey of pleasure and horror. Where the creavtivity and the mind have no limits. This is RETRO NYLON.